I am buried deep in my darkness...if u climbed into my thoughts.....u would first drown then rot and and will be stuck there in the darkness.....every time i see a couple i wana stab my self for my jealousy.....the jealousy of happiness.....they seem so happy and loved and having a great time while i have to suffer from pain just because no one gives a shit....it is so painfull that it rots in my heart...with each thought about her i rot even more inside... i love her so much and i cant do anything much...i know love is a strong feeling but i feel very strong for her and UGH!!!...i just wana stab myself to get that rotten feeling of lost dreams out...